Spirituality through Horror

What is really a Ghost? 

I am talking about the concept of a Ghost. A Ghost is one whose consciousness remains, awareness remains but he loses his body and mind, so much so that he is caught in his desirous self, where he can desire but cannot fulfil his desires because he no longer has his body or mind. 

Isn't this human condition? Just A human being still has his body and mind. For instance, An adult grows to be old. He craves for sexual pleasure, but he cannot do it now. His sexual drives has bodily limitations. His urges does not leave him. He keeps on lingering on women bodies, but all in vain. He has to console his self through Spirituality. 

Spirituality is not a consolation prize. Anyone who practices it like that, is a ghost in human form. 

A man always craved for material success. He could not. He turned into a pervert of material success. Now he practices Spirituality as a means to control himself. This pervert is psychologically ill.

In any World transaction, non-self-aware people turn mad. The winner becomes neurotic. The loser becomes a pervert. A pervert is one who keeps on wishing for success. A Neurotic is someone who will base his whole identity on the success. His ego inflates. He will not kill for saving his ego. 

Actually, Non-self-aware souls turn into living ghosts. The pathetic Indian Ghosts we saw in Bollywood films. Like, See, Shaitaan, R Madhavan, did not die. But the question for unlimited power through charms and tantra, made him a toungue less pervert. 

There are many Ghosts who won and became Neurotics. Like, In the movie "Haunted", The soul of the Professor has won over the soul of the woman, he is a winner. His win did not make him free. His win made him captive of the haunted house. 

In the film, 1920 Evil returns, The ghost enter the body of the woman, to eat tasty non-vegetarian food. The Gluttony and the lust for taste remains. 

The world is transitory but the effects stick. The man keeps it in memory. The change is perceived as loss. 

The Ghosts of Vengeance, "Manjulika" Comes in memory. The lust for vengeance takes over the whole identity. 

Isn't it suiting to say, that Ghosts are personifications of Human desire only? No Ghost exists devoid of a self-made meaning for himself. This meaning is mostly desire driven. 

Actually, Purposelessness is divinity. It is the state in which Bhagwaan wants to see us. But we crave meaning. 

Why do we crave meaning? Why do we want to prove someone something. Why do we run for pleasure? Why do we get depressed? 

All these answers connect to desire and desire alone. 

Needs of the body and mind cannot justify the quest for desires. Needs fulfilment requires a selflessness. But the insecurity of man dictates that man is in search of something more than needs. 

Actually man justifies his desires by calling it needs. You body making sounds for food is a need, but you making sound for Aloo paratha is a desire. 

So, if someone asks you, "have you seen a ghost?" Say, yes, I look daily in the mirror. 

A ghost is a pathetic state of being. A ghost is what humans normally live as. 

Pathetic creatures who keep torturing other souls for somehow getting rid of their desires. 

When you rudely talk to someone, what are you doing? You are announcing, "I am an unfulfilled desire ghost". I am in need of solace. But in vain. 

What happens when you desperately wish something would happen? You are a ghost. 

If you really, really, someday meet a supernatural creature, like a ghost, pat him. He could not fight his demons. He could not uploft himself. 

His drive to live outgrew his drive to die. Nobody other than the ghost can make himself free? You can just feel sad about the ghost. 

What pity! Sad that human civilization has to see ghosts in majority and very few Mukta Purush. Very few Buddha, Osho, JK. 

Very few people who outgrow their drive to live. They outgrew wishing. 

I hope you fall in this Category Aatman! 

🙏

MY FUTURE RESOLUTIONS OF YEAR 2025!: THIS YEAR TO HOPE

THIS YEAR TO HOPE! AND ALL YEARS TO HOPE! 

My future resolutions! Yes! In these three phrases might be numerous judgements, numerous smirks and numerous interests and fascinations I might get. 

Whenever we talk about future goals, like this one time, I was with my lab mates and my then supervisor in research, Prof. Ashish Arora. And in some context, I do not remember, I just said, "I want to open a coffee shop after I retire, probably somewhere on the mountains, or may be near a beach, where some poets, some writers or some readers might come to read, to chat, to talk." 

Ashish was surprised at my claim. He said, "Why are you deciding about 60 years down the line?" He was astonished by this dream that one can have for after retirement. 

I mean, I don't know, I might be wrong, but what is wrong in having a dream? The problem with people who achieve their dreams in life is that they get so scared of the trauma of the path towards the dream that they no longer have the ability to dream more. So, in turn, in the further life, they just keep enjoying of their achieved dream and they fear dreaming. Dream, when this word comes, the next thing they think automatically is how to do it? and so on!

They do not enjoy the dream in its idea stage. Nowadays, especially in the neo-liberal economy, the pressure of hustling and finding success is so much that the inherent joy of dreams has been lost. My mentor, Ashish sir, and I really respect him, I think is caught in the same web. 

In my eyes, any person, who is dreaming, who is a dreamer, who has some plans and resolutions, is already a champion. He, first of all, has not lost the taste of life. The taste of life is in desire. Yeah, this is another aspect that you have to lose desire and spirituality and all that, but just if we look life as living drive, I think dreaming is essential feature of that. Dreaming is hoping. 

So, I encourage everyone to make resolutions whether you could not follow it even on 1st January. This shows hopefulness. Have hope, cultivate it. Make a small garden inside your Mindspace and grow some hope for your little life, a little light for your little life. Not more, little. 

Now, let's come to the issue at hand. 

The issue at hand here is My new year resolutions. 

My resolutions are usually based on past year analysis, what things I did right and what things I didn't? and what things I could have done right but I got lazy. And based on this trigonal analysis we will make a list of resolutions. 

Let's start with what things I did good in this year. 

1. I resolved Kalesh in my life. 😅. Almost all pending ones. My friends, I had fought once. I resolved that, I cried. I resolved the long lingering attachment with my ex-girlfriend Smriti, I resolved that. I cried there as well. I fought with my brother for being rude. I resolved that as well. Again, I cried there. 

2. I avoided Kalesh in most of the places, where either someone tried to provoke me, or I felt the anger hidden within me. Like, numerous times in the gym, I was provoked by my gym trainer by saying something obnoxious about either my physique, or my career choices or both. I was provoked by my grandfather (Which is his typical habit, he wants you to argue back so that he can shout at you). 

So, these places and many other places where I kept my cool, even when many times, I was angry. 

Most of the times, I even sense that this has deliberately been said to degrade my morales and so on, But I keep my head. If you are doing this, this is your pathetic life insecurities, your demons, your problems. I will not contribute in it by reacting on it. 

3. I chose another field of career for myself. Public services. Administration, if everything went well.  I think it was wise of me to leave academics. I know, as a doer, I could have handled things better and could have completed my master's at least. But that is the only thing I regret from that place. Leaving PhD is the best decision of my life perhaps. I think my desires and my strengths will be better respected outside academia, if everything went well, in Civil services. 

4. I joined Gym. Yes, mostly people who follow my YouTube streaks and my statuses of WhatsApp, this will not be news. I did join gym and continued till now for 62 days. All the lethargy of 2024 escaped, and a light of activity came in my life. Not only that, I inspired some noble souls to either hit the gym or to start a workout at their homes. 

Like, Sourabh Jain, Himanshu Singh, Abhishek Kumar, Kumar Ashish, Numerous other people who came to me at gym and told me that they saw my shorts on YouTube and thought we should also do it. Also, Anand Mohan bhaiya, who I advised after his setback in his career, to join gym and he did, and I am glad he has completed I think, 7-8 months in the Gym. Nitesh, my friend, is not someone who I inspired. I think, his home workout schedules are somethings that inspired me to do something for my physical wellness.  

I am glad that these people were so generous first of all, to start doing gym, and secondly, generous enough to let me that. Otherwise, people start gyming in jealousy of the other person and they never realize even if in Jealousy, they are doing a kindness to their own bodies. 

5. I was kind to animals. I did not misbehave, took care, as much as my schedule allowed me, of dogs in my locality and the dogs my family had pet. I gave them food whenever I could.

6. I understood that Attention is the best form of generosity. If you give attention to something, it heals. If you give attention to a person, he heals. It is like Jesus's touch. The wounds heal. Emotional wounds, mental wounds. I listened a lot. A lot more than last year where I kept talking more and listened less. 

7. I was consistent mostly in my UPSC CSE 2025 preparation. Yes, there were days of lethargy, days of procrastination, days of frustration. But I kept my head down and kept going. By that grace, I have 1 pager notes made of all micro themes of Mains. I have written model answers of all questions from 2013-2024. I can say I am mains ready. 

And I discovered what a joy and aesthetic beauty is in even note making. How beautifully crafted notes I have. Damn! I feel like Brahma praising the world he created. 

8. I read a lot of books this year. Like, the count that I kept was till September and it included poetry, fiction, non-fiction, books on subjects like economy, administration etc. Till September, I had read some 146 books. Then I lost count. My OCD ass mind did not like this itch but yeah, I am glad also that I read so much that I did not get time for reading. 

9. I wrote a lot. Till now, I have written some 183 blogs that in total has 98,673 words. Can you believe it? Also, my blog got monetized. I used to dream about it when I started it in my first year in college. I used to discuss it with my then Girlfriend Smriti. She used to say, it is extremely difficult to earn through blogs because nobody reads nowadays. And see, When I needed it the most, it came. I had lost hope of whether it will come. But it came. 

10. I meditated. A lot. Like, this year, might be called the meditation year. I think I meditated for more than 1 hour/day. More came the blows, the traumas, More I closed my eyes and went inside. 

Now, let's come to what did I do wrong or what I could have done better? 

1. I hurt a lot of people. May be more than I know. Willingly unwillingly, I hurt a lot of people. Maybe because of my arrogant energy, someone got intimidated. Someone got hurt. Someone felt more down. I regret that I could not take care of that. I could have been more empathetic. I could have been more understanding. 

Some names I remember that I hurt, or I could have hurt, are, Nitesh Kumar Krishna, my friend, Abhishek Kumar another one, Sourabh Jain, Deep Majumdar, Om Vandra for sure (I knew what I said to him was wrong and I regret that, if I would have remained in IISER, I would have apologized to the man), Ojasvi Sharma (She wished to help me when I was sick, but I shouted at her), Shobhit Prabhat (I told him the truth about my past relationship and how it affected me for so long, this might have tainted my relationship with him, since he is not picking up my calls since then😅, Also this might just be me overthinking and he just might be busy, look what meditation does to you, you start recognizing your own fictions created in your head). 

Also, I might have hurt my own father several times, when I cussed my mother in front of him. He would not have liked it since this is the woman he loved at some point in his life. I regret that. I think it is extremely selfish to show my anger in front of someone. Anger is my problem, and I could have handled it. Also, Krupali Meghani, Riddhima, Neha, Surbhi, Disha and some other girl I forgot her name, I found on Bumble. Damn, that's a lot of women. 😅

2. I procrastinated a lot. If not, I could have managed a master's degree from IISER which I could not do. I could have managed clearing prelims that I could not do. I could have revised my mains syllabus and given mocks before today that I missed. 

3. I could have joined Gym earlier. I used to go for walks, sometimes, more than 10 Km. But Gym is something I could have joined earlier. 

4. I paid attention to people's opinion about me. Sometimes on my physique. I hit a guy named Shivam because he taunted me for being fat. I could have handled it better. I got affected by that broker and abused him. I hit many people this year because I could not control my anger. 

5. I could not continue YouTube longer. I am not saying I should not. How many things can I do? I know but still, It is still a job undone. 

6. I missed meditations, I missed some gym days because of laziness or mismanagement of time. 

7. I could not keep my promises. Chaitra ma'am, I promised that I will join her as a PhD student. I failed to deliver that. I promised Ashish, My ex-mentor, that I will be more diligent in lab. Some more promises broken in personal life. I broke up with my girlfriend Surbhi because I lost interest. I am sorry.

8. I was not kind to myself. I still judged myself badly for not performing. I let other people enter my thoughts, I doubted myself. I felt like a loser in like 40 percent of the year. 

Finally, Let us come to Resolutions

1.  More meditation: Now I will keep doing this thing. Whatever time will I get. And maybe I can keep a journal of that. Tracking my meditation times. This will help yes. My ideal in this journey is none other than Yuval Noah Harari, the so called most intelligent man on earth right now, The Israeli Historian, who is meditating for 24 years now. He comes every year to India, to do Vipassana. He meditates 2 hours every day. I am not sure I can do that. But, Yeah, I think 1 hour a day, now I can pull. 

2. More Gym: I will be regular in Gym. I will try to attain hypertrophy in lifting, that is, pushing till your muscles give up. Then only, will muscles grow. They expand, they break, and new tissues create more visibility of muscles. 

3. More Kindness to people around me and myself :) 

4. Do not rush for making relationships if you do not have the time and space for that. 

5. Do not let negative fictional stories come in my head. Not even positive ones. Try to be mindful of the fictions that come up and just be aware of reality as it is. 

6. Keep listening to Bhagwan. He is the light of my life, the reason of my existence, the source of my strength, the only closed one in my life by whom I derive strength. 

7. More focus, and more resilience in the career. Jaan Laga do ya jaane do. Aur as I used to say back in the day, the dialogues of Mountain man, "Jab tak todenge nahi, tab tak chorrenge nahi". 

8. More empathy to my own people. I know people around me complain that I have more empathy for strangers than for my own people, people of marginalized castes, gender, class, Adivasis etc. So, yeah, I would like to be nicer to my younger brother, my Grandparents and my parents. 

9. More reading. Like, organized reading. Like, I always make a list of what to read this year and always start reading something else. This time, I will not make a list but I will surely keep a list of whatever I read. 

10. Some serious writing regarding poetry, Non-fiction, Political theory, Philosophy, and yeah finally, I have started writing stories. So, I will keep continuing them. 

11. Healthy eating. Eating is my vice. I eat a lot of junk. I will try to eat healthier. Also, drink more water. 

12. Spend economically. I spend a lot of money. Mostly on books and on chocolates. probably will keep it to 3 months a book, and probably 1 month a chocolate. 

13. Learn Urdu Script. It is high time I complete it. I heard from my earlier Prof. Chaitra madam that she could not learn Urdu for 12 years because she always got busy. Damn, it scared me. I will learn it anyhow this year. And probably I will write my first Urdu script written Ghazal this year. 

Lastly, People I am thankful to are many. To name a few. 

1. Nitesh my friend

2. Abhishek my friend

3. Deep my friend. 

4. My Father, despite my issues, he has been there for me. 

5. My mother

6. My Grandmother 

7. My aunt

8. My Grandfather

9. My uncle

10. My Physics teacher Shivam sir. he kindled a hope in me that I can clear it. I rigor that I had lost I regained because of him. 

And many other people, like Neha, one of the women I saw this year, she taught me that we can be non-judgmental to people even when they are judging us. The list goes on. I am just a student and even if I settled in some career, hopefully an IAS 😅😅, I would keep learning from people around me. 

So, yeah, this was it. Long list. I will start it from tomorrow. Happy new year to all. Keep dreaming. 

Do not be afraid of dreaming. Even nightmares have a purpose of waking you up. They are alarm clocks. :) 

FOR EVERY DROP EXISTS AN OCEAN!

What is there in a drop that the ocean has not? And what is that in the ocean that drop craves? I think the security that the ocean has is something that the drop craves. Drop is in turn free. Ocean is bound in his own existence. 

To quote Waseem Barelvi, Contemporary poet, 

Kya dukh hai, samandar ko bata bhi nahi sakta
Aansoo ki tarah aankh tak aa bhi nahi sakta

It means, the sorrow of the ocean is immense and inexpressible. It cannot even come to the eyes of the sad as a drop of tear. 

The Drop's existence is illusionary. Actually, that is complementary to the property of being free. Freedom in its nature is so free that the thing that is free is also free to not be, to not even exist. The Drop might decide to just one day not be, just vaporize or anything, change forms. 

Standing there at the cliff of a mountain, comes a random thought, what if I just jump and let go. This is a free man's statement. Then he gets scared. Agency kicks back. Insecurity kicks back. The man is now secure but unfree. 

What if someday he jumps, and all his imaginations that he will hit the ground were false. He keeps falling. There is not base. No ground to fall on. Just an empty space to keep falling and falling and falling. How does it feel when you are in air, and you are falling. At that moment, regardless of the future, this loss of agency, this passivity is freedom. 

Freedom is freedom from the false sense of agency of your own self. That is the paradox of agency. For being free, you need to have agency, you should "try" to be free, but freedom is in loss of even your own agency on yourself. 

Often, when we talk of freedom, the catch phrase is, "Freedom to govern ourselves". That is to take your own agency in your own hands. But then comes the responsibility of taking care of this fragile soul, in the dreadful existence of life. This little child is taught a freedom which keeps him bound for the rest of his lives. Oh, this burden of taking care of your being, your life. 

Oh, this man, who was once a child, is taught fear. Fear to protect your life. What is the fear? That death will hurt. And Life does not? 

Why then Gorakh says, "Maro ae Jogi Maro, Maran Hai Meetha!" 

Death, to not be, the ultimate freedom. Majaz writes, 

 “Zindagi Saaz De Rahi Hai Mujhe, 

Sehr-o Aijaz De Rahi Hai Mujhe, 

Aur Bahut Door Aasmanon Se, 

Maut Aawaz De Rahi Hai Mujhe”

Death calls everyone, every second, that you decide to not die, you do not listen to your death. Some people listen. Some people listen only to death. 

Actually, one of the secrets of life is the paradoxical nature of agency and loss of agency. Activity and passivity as we say. 

Existence requires activity. An active man exists more. But, the flavor of existence is in the passivity, where you can feel life in its full force. Be it pain, suffering, pleasure, sadness, glory, sweetness, anything. 

Any work, for starting it, requires activity, agency. You must sit and close your eyes, taking agency, to meditate. But meditation takes you to a place where your agency loses, you lose control, you experience momentary freedom. You read a book, and you start reading it, initially, you find it difficult to focus, but after some initial resistance, you lose yourself in that. Absorbed in it, is a person, who is now just a book reader. His whole personality, existence for that moment is lost in it. You see a pair of eyes, moving side to side, reading word to word and probably what's in between words, spaces. 

Any work, from mundane to mundane, is mundane till the point there is agency left in the doer. The Doer needs agency to start it. But the agency is the fuel that ultimately gets exhausted in the combustion of the workforce, and then is the energy, the heat that the passive can enjoy. 

After a point it seems like, the eyes are doing their job, the brain is doing its job of interpretation, and I am free to just sit and watch. What is happening? the door is reading a book; the writer is writing its blog, and I am looking at the writer of the blog. 

It is like, the fingers are running by itself, the brain gives instructions, I look at myself as I look at someone else doing their job. 

This, I have heard in some people's spiritual memoirs. Kumar Vishwas told this in an interview. This is supposed to be called "Anhad". 

"Had", or boundaries, are what define life. What you can do and what you cannot is decided by your own self. This happens in gym, in front of you, is a 35 kgs dumbbell, ask yourself, can I do dumbbell press with two 35 kgs dumbbell, there will come a voice, no, you cannot. Who is this voice? Do not mistake it to be your own voice. This is the animal in you who wants to keep living. His survival instinct. I am not saying you should do it. I am saying, this is "had". 

When you start pushing your limits, it becomes "behad". behad is the zone where dreams come true, physique is built, people become mature, strong, people become famous. 

Then, a man when he keeps pushing his limits, behad, he continues for so long that there is now no more to push, this is anhad, when the body says, ok we got it. This is what you want to do. Let us do it for you. The mind says, ok this is the only thing you want to think about. Ok, let me do it. 

The whole mind-body structure runs on autopilot. And the pilot, you, can now sit, enjoy, you feel at ease with everything. You do not get tired. The body knows that what it has to do. You are mostly absent from everywhere. You are inside, in your Mindspace, in the tranquility of life. In a way, you are now falling in blank space. and there is no fear that one day I will fall on ground. 

Come back to the drop. You are the drop, It is your destiny to get immersed in the ocean and lose your self. But, the ocean also wishes to be a drop and keep on living. Now, there is nothing to worry about. Keep living as a drop, you are living the ocean's dream. One day, the drop will be able to live the drop's dream. 

 

TAO UPANISHAD: CHAPTER 3

 

If you over esteem great men, people become powerless. 

If you overvalue possessions, people begin to steal. 

The Master leads by emptying people’s minds and filling their cores, by weakening their ambition and toughening their resolve. 

He helps people lose everything they know, everything they desire, and creates confusion in those who think that they know. 

Practice not-doing, and everything will fall into place.

 Ancient Texts were simple. Simple in the sense that they did not have any intricate counter-intuitive logic. The Thinker did not wish to surprise you with his wit, He, Buddha, Lao Tzu or anyone, never wished that he should leave an effect on your mind, they never wanted to impress you. Neither they wanted to express. Most of the times, they did not even want to speak about these things. They were forced, in a way, by other people to do that. 

I write commentaries on them for a different reason. I really want to express myself through them. I really think that the wise men were as ordinary as us, and the way to live life with peace is very simple, so simple that we, intelligent species on earth, just overlook it thinking, "Oh! Life cannot be that simple". 

This tendency of ours to over interpret life or make it a complex within our minds is part of the problem. If you wish to solve your personal dilemmas, first of all you need to really feel that it can be solved. I think without this feeling; you will just end up mystifying things for yourself or philosophizing. 

बताने वाले वहीं पर बताते हैं मंज़िल
हज़ार बार जहाँ से गुज़र चुका हूँ मैं

~ Majaz 

Let us start to observe what Lao Tzu knows and writes.

If you over esteem great men, people become powerless. Great men are those who understand the secret. The Mystery of existence. The dilemma is that the mystery exists, this is the extent to which it can be known. Anything further than that will be an exaggeration. If you know the mystery with certainty, then there is no mystery left for you. 

It is a tendency of this world to start valuing great men too much. Nietzsche has said somewhere, 

Every deep thinker is more afraid of being understood than of being misunderstood.

This means, if your ideas are readily accepted without any challenge, it means people have over-idealized your ideas and nobody is going to implement them in their lives. 

Powerless people are those who lose agency in their lives. What is there in over valuing great men that makes people powerless? It is again in the classification. If you make again a dichotomy, that these are great men and we are ordinary, what you are doing is normalizing your lifestyle and trying to escape from the need to implement them in your life. 

People, who I tell to meditate, first judge me for my "Anti-scientific" stance. Then I show them some neuroscience research papers on Buddhist meditation techniques. Then they get convinced, but next day when I ask them whether they did meditate or not? They say, oh no, I got busy. Oh no! I am at ease. I do not feel like doing it. 

I do not say anything further. I just wonder. How hard is it to sit for 5 minutes your eyes closed. You anyway close your eyes at night and try to sleep and may be more than that. But their minds are like haunted places where no Godly behavior is allowed. Their mind resists meditation like a ghost resists exorcism. 

People say, I do not see any difference in your life because of meditation. Please understand that this is your mind fooling you. You keep on arguing that meditation is something I cannot do since you can no longer argue that it does not work. I just showed you the research papers. 

The problem with powerless people is that they want a pre-planned everything known path for this. They are not willing to move in the unknown. The path of mystery is the path of unknown. You move there like you move in a dark room, feeling stuff with your hands and legs, so that you don't collide with anything. Sometimes you even do, you get traumatized. You suffer. You fall ill. But you continue because the drive to know the truth is so high. 

I do not know if they will benefit with these arguments. This cynicism, this skepticism. I feel it is really not for everyone. Only those who are God given, come to this path. 'Spiritual Quotient" must be a thing. They do not have it. They do not use it. I think it is better to pretend blindness in a world full of blinds. 

I am sorry to end this at a pessimistic end, but what to do. I really do not believe that I can ever convince anyone to meditate. Even when people agree to meditate, like one girl texted me in desperation yesterday at night, that she is now ready to meditate. People come to me in pain. In depression. Nobody wants to meditate when it is all sunny and happy. People are selfish. People just want cure of their pains. Nobody wants to know the truth. 

If you overvalue possessions, people begin to steal. 

Lao tzu is telling you perhaps the most important insight of economics. Our whole system of economics is false. It is based on scarcity. It is based on demand and what is less rather than what is essential for survival. 

Our economics values diamond because it is found less and water less because it is found more. In a sane world, where people value their needs more than their scarcity, Water would have been costlier since it is on which we live. Diamonds are stones. Why is a diamond so important really? 

The question to ask is why did he write it here? He writes here to remind that when you overvalue something more than its need, People want it without realizing that they need it. That is the definition of Stealing. Stealing is the act of wanting your needs more than you need. 

I over value meditation, honestly, too much, because probably I am new to this. I have been doing it since 8th grade, and it has only been 11 years. It is a short span for dhyana. People meditate for 50-60 years. When I overvalue meditation, people start stealing it. How can you steal meditation? You can, when you do not do it yourself, but just keep on arguing how is it useful? Is it useful to you? You do not look peaceful. You look normal only. No changes I see in you, Vibhat. That is how you steal anyone's meditation. You somehow justify in your head, that whatever he is saying is a facade, either he is a fool, or he is making me one. 

I should stop selling meditation. I should just mind my own business and keep on doing it. And why should I care if people benefit or not? do hell with people. This might not seem spiritual, but It really is. When you realize that you can cure no one. And people really believe their own mind more than you, because they somehow think, their mind is their friend. No one's mind has ever been anyone's best friend. 

The Master leads by emptying people’s minds and filling their cores, by weakening their ambition and toughening their resolve. 

I am not a master. Lao Tzu is. He says, a master, leads by emptying people's minds. and filling their cores. 

How can you empty minds and fill cores? Understand, what is cores? It is the source within all. It is the Tao that he talks about. When the mind is filled with thoughts, core is empty. I see people arguing about things and feel a little bit sad, that how empty their cores are. Like a candle not lit yet. Mind is the source of all problems. People still keep on thinking, using their minds. 

Javed Akhtar says, "Spiritual people are frauds, they want to use their own minds, but they do not let you use yours". I feel sad that Javed Akhtar, such a great man will die without knowing the nature of his mind. His whole life went in struggles, and he could not find peace. Only if he could have left thoughts, Only if he could have closed his eyes, bas itna hi toh karna hota hai, Thak jaana hota hai apne aap se, maaf kar dena hota hai khudko, ki thik hai, bahut soch liya iss janam ke liye, ab nahi sochna hai, ab bas aaraam karna hai, mind ko keh do, ab tum jaao, Jeevan bhar tum humko bas daraya hai, khali pareshan kiya hai,

ab marna hoga toh mar jayenge, tumhara baat nahi maanenge, Tum hi hai problem. 

Weakening ambition and toughening resolve means? 

Resolution....Sankalp. 

That is the basis of all dhyana. You close your eyes and say, 1 ghanta se pahle toh nahi kholenge. Ab humko batao, kaun rok sakta hai tumko? 

Kya tum apni kamzori se hi dukh mein nahi ho? Sach bolo? 

Weakening ambition. Ambition is for people who want to keep thinking what they want to do instead of actually doing it. People like to romanticize their journeys. Ki dekho, hum kitna ambitious aadmi hain. 

Ambitions should not exist for a working man. A working man works so absorbed that he cares not about the goal. Goal achieve ho toh uski bala se, na ho toh uski bala se. 

Ya toh I can work or I can think. Dono nahi ho sakta. 

He helps people lose everything they know, everything they desire, and creates confusion in those who think that they know. 

Do people really want to lose everything they know? Everything they desire? Yes, I am talking to you. You, who is reading this! Can you lose desires? Someday just give up. Nahi hoga ab humse chahna. 

Nahi chahenge ab kuch bhi. Can you lose your knowledge? Can you genuinely just accept that whatever you knew until now, was bullshit. You wasted 50 years of your life. Can you? 

If you can make one heap of all your winnings

    And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,

And lose, and start again at your beginnings

    And never breathe a word about your loss;

If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew

    To serve your turn long after they are gone,   

And so hold on when there is nothing in you

    Except the Will which says to them: ‘Hold on!’

~ "If" By Rudyard Kipling 

The Master cannot do these for you. Ye toh aapko hi karna padega. Master itna kar dega, ki wo Confuse

kar dega aapko ki kam se kam aap doubt toh karo. 

The Master confuses you. It makes you doubt your own knowledge. But, people start doubting their masters. Because people do not wish to be fooled. But that is the paradox of life. People who do not want to get fooled, people who are too cautious, are fooled but by themselves. 

Practice not-doing, and everything will fall into place.

कुछ जीवन का मान करो जी, ध्यान करो! 

इतना ना अभिमान करो जी, ध्यान करो! 

विभात तो ठेठ गँवार था यारों समझो भी, 

तुम ज्ञानी हो ज्ञान करो जी, ध्यान करो |

भीतर बाहर एक समान की तृष्णा फैली, 

जीना थोड़ा आसान करो जी, ध्यान करो | 

मैंने कब बोला किसी बाबा के पाँव धरो, 

तुम बस केवल ध्यान करो जी, ध्यान करो |

हज़ार तर्क़ तुम दे दोगे, मैं जानूँ हूँ प्यारे, 

कर के थोड़ा विद्वान करो जी, ध्यान करो |

तुमको लगता होगा, छलने की कोशिश है, 

जासूस बन ही छान करो जी, ध्यान करो|

"विभात" की बात में नाद है रे अज्ञात की, 

अज्ञात को मत अज्ञान करो जी, ध्यान करो |

This is what he means. Dhyana karo. Even Lao tzu says it. Meditate. Practice non-doing. 

You know people say, "Oh, this is not what he means. He means do the work like it is done by God. Do like non-doing." 

Like how do you know? Have you ever meditated? Aap 5 minute toh sthir baith nahi sakte. Aapko lagta hai ki Aapko pata hai ki non-doing kya hota hai? 

Aap kodiya hain. Lazy aadmi hain. Bakchod hain. Aapke liye nahi hain Meditation. Meditation is for the man who is diligent. A diligent man never asks this question that why should I meditate? 

The master says to him, Meditate and he starts meditation. Simple as that. 

Lekin, aap kaahil hain. Aapko apna laziness justify karna hai. Toh aap Lao Tzu ko over-interpret kar diye. Lao tzu hota toh muh par thuk deta aapke. 

On this happy note, We end this. What did we learn from this? 

One word, "Meditate!" 

How will you do it? aankh band karlo jitan der ho sake, 30 seconds, 1 minute, 2 minute, 5 minutes, 1 ghanta. 

Kahte hain, "Ghee ke laddooo tedhon bhala!" 

or "Laddoos of Ghee are better even if they are not in proper form". 

Do not aim perfection. Just do, galat sahi, kuch bhi, Bas daily. 

WHAT DID I LEARN IN THIS WHOLE YEAR?

Hey, how you guys doing? 

Some of you, who are not guys, women, I mean, complain that why I ask only guys about doing? Why not us women? To which I have two answers, One flirtatious, and other genuine. 

Flirtatious answer is, Because Only men have to try to do their work, you women are champions, you just flow, and the work is done. If you think this flirt has any merit, do give me a text on WhatsApp or anywhere you like, we can flirt some more. 😅😏

Coming to the genuine answer, it is just a catch phrase, for me guys is the gender-neutral term, which includes genders across the spectrum. So, yeah, that is the reason, it is my Carryminati analog of "Toh kaise hain aap log?" 

So, coming to the issue at hand, how was my 2024? Given that we are at the end of this year, It is only suitable to write something, however brief about how was this year for me? What did I learn? How my worldview shifted? And what I think ultimately, I will try to achieve in next year? 

First of all, I discovered that how toxic I can be to some people? How much hatred I have for some people who are closely related to me. For example, My mother. When I started writing about my mother, I did not know that I could write this much and this worse. So, yeah, I was not empathetic to her. and I regret it. Everyone deserves empathy regardless of whatever they did in their lives. Maybe, I am currently at this phase, where I cannot respect her as a mother, because my issues are not at closure here. But, some day may be, and as the world is going, Future mothers are going to be worse, so may be in some 10 years down the line, I respect my mother more compared to the mothers of my own generation, who could be even worse bitches of their times. Do not get me wrong, I am not a misogynist, but I am not blind either. Bitches need to be called out. Lastly, I think, I empathize with my mother. I understand she also had her fair share of sufferings. And yeah, Maybe If she would not been my mother, My hatred would be lesser. This hatred of mine is an "Emotional bias". I will overcome this as well. Not for her, but for myself. 

Secondly, and ironical enough, I discovered Spirituality. A solace that saved me from the turmoil and disasters of the world. As Osho says, "Sara jahaan usko giraane ki koshish mein laga raha, lekin jo tere naam se jud gaya, wo tir gaya!".

I found God. I found Osho. Actually, Osho is God to me. With all his flaws and foes, I am in love with the man. Saari duniya uski burai karti rahe, Mai andha hun uski bhakti mein. I am in his feet. 

कबीर कुत्ता राम का, मुतिया मेरा नाऊँ।

गलै राम की जेवड़ी, जित खैंचे तित जाऊँ॥

You cannot understand the dignity and self-respect of a Bhakt. You might think he has lost his mind, he has lost his soul, his individuality, his intelligence, what is he doing with his life? But all he has lost is his ego. Blessed is those who turn mad in the Bhakti of their Gods. 

Not all madnesses are madnesses, some madnesses are sanity. The problem is in public perception, and most of us, even intelligent ones, like my Friend Nitesh, live by public perception only, have notions of madness connected to common behaviors. This is such an enlightenment phenomenon. Like, if someone is behaving or saying things contrary to what the herd or mass mentality is doing, he must be crazy. Madness is just anti-common sense to most of us. But Madness is much more nuanced. 

Those are mad, who get stuck in the clutches of thought. For them, the need to logically understand God and life abstained them from Living life to the fullest and falling in love with God to the fullest. Again see, I am saying God and not the idea of God. 

My only suggestion to anyone who is suffering for any reason, Fall in love. I don't know how can you? But just do. Either try to understand God. God is not wrong. You are. If you cannot understand God, always think that you are less intelligent. Because God is, God was, God will be. May be not in the same language as you understand, may be not the same material that you sense, but It is. 

Third, I experienced failures in my professional life, my personal life, and even my family life. I lost my PhD position at IISER. The whole research scene is so judgmental that apparently, if I wish to return to physics ever again, It is almost like I have sinned, and I can never recover. I blame no one. I could have handled things better. It was my mistake. I own it. I am learning. I will fail. I am not perfect. But yes, I try, And I will keep trying. And God bless, I lost my ego due to spirituality so I do not have that big ego now that I cannot work in a mediocre job. I can, I can start at a humble place and try to climb higher. 

Personal life, yes, I moved on from my Ex-girlfriend Smriti. I forgive her. And I do not wish to be forgiven anymore from her. I think this is an ultimate moving on anyone can have. I have cried, cried for hours, days and nights. I have cried in front of my friends, Abhishek and Nitesh, We three have hugged each other. That night might be the lowest point in my life. But That night, I realized that I am a billionaire in life. I have such good friends. Friends who saw me at my lowest and did not flicker. Friends, who listened to me saying continuously, I will come out of it, I will come out of it. This is not the end. 

If they are reading this, Nitesh and Abhishek, and I know Abhishek does not read my blogs anymore 😅, he said he reads only accomplished people's stuff, I want to tell those two fellas, I love you man. With all my criticisms and all, please understand, whatever comes my mouth is shit, but this is gold. I love you both. By fortune or otherwise, I have found friends, probably for life for which I have no merit. 

You know, friendship, love, sukoon, these are such spiritual categories that have some material manifestations that are easily available. Like, Sex is the manifestation of love, finding colleaques is a material manifestation of friendship and finding money is for sukoon. But, this gives an illusion that the material manifestations are the real spiritual categories. But the fact remains, Sukoon is a different game, Love and friendship are higher categories. They are the mysteries that are always higher than the manifestations if we wish to use Lao tzu's terminologies. 

Family life, I had fights with my younger brother. Ego clashes, conflicts with him as well. I know he reads none of my work since he remains so absorbed in his work that he has no apparent social or creative life. This was in fact, one of my complaints on which we fought. Now, he has realized it a bit. He is changing a bit, he no longer replies rudely to family members, he still forgets his stuff a lot. I hope he learns. I have been in his place. When I used to think that academic brilliance is the only thing that matters and everything else is an accessory. I used to think exactly what he thinks, those who are living without knowledge or any attributes are living in vain. 

।। येषां न विद्या न तपो न दानं, ज्ञानं न शीलं न गुणो न धर्मः 

। ते मृत्युलोके भुवि भारभूता, मनुष्यरूपेण मृगाश्चरन्ति।।
~ Chanakya

I do not agree with this nonsense anymore. Humans do not exist to do any of this. These are just things people do to keep having fun. This moral policing, this Daddy uncle philosophy is bullshit. Chanakya can go suck my nuts. 

Family yes, I have grown to have gained respect for this family institution in general. It will not be an overstatement to say that these are my struggling days, and I will be an ungrateful idiot if I do not recognize the contributions of my dadaji and my family, in my difficult times. So, thank you dada ji. 

You made me what I am today, if anyone did tapasya, it was you by educating us two idiots, who lost their father and mother to life and was in destiny's hands. We could have been worse. I am grateful. 

Fourthly, I have become this multi-dimensional person that I am today. Earlier when I was into Physics, Somehow I think, I had become a One-dimensional man. I understood my hidden social potential (My capabilities in public service domain), Physical potential ( I lifted 180 kgs deadlift, I am been consistently at gym for 61 days now) and most of all, Spiritual potential ( I did not know, I could love God so much, I mean, Kya hota yaar mera, I could have been a bandit of reason for life without realizing that life is such a magnificent mystery to be lived as such). 

Lastly, I think I have grown as a person. I have realized there is no such thing as Aptitude. yes, for ethics answer writing, we will pretend that something like this exists. But, if you be honest, is not it a defense mechanism of humans to explain greatness. Humans cannot comprehend this fact that just by doing something continuously, someone can be that brilliant. They think, there needs to be a natural talent to explain this. Something given by God. Dude, I really think, God is not a worker at a factory, filling everyone's head with talent in different areas. If you want to involve God, Involve God fully. God is doing everything. We are mere instruments. Some instruments are sharper than others. simple. Or, accept this fact, that when a man just takes a vow, that whatever happens, I will do this boring shit, for 8 hours every day till I get success, magic happens. A magic that is so beautiful that only a God given stuff can explain it. But no god given really, It is man given to man. It is hard work and patience. 

Future, I will put everything on the paddle. Whatever it takes, let's see till what boundaries I can push myself. And then, God is great. Whatever happened, God did. Whether I get success, I will blame it on God 😂, Whether I lose, God's plan. 

My Physics optional teacher told me, "Kisi tarah Prelims nikaal lo, Vibhat, Mains, hum accha number se pass karwa denge guarantee hai mera!". 

I mean, 😅

Kya hi bola jaaye ab. 

Karte hain mehnat bhai.... A confident teacher like him deserves a hardworking student like me. Let us show them sir, what a tag team of teacher student can do. I will work twice as hard from today. This writing has given my clarity. 

Rest is fine. We need to realize that living at ease is the first requirement of any hard work that you do. 

So, if you ask me, Prioritize physical and mental health. And do meditate. This is the one thing that has saved me from going insane. I mean, I am still insane but in a good way. 

जौ मै बौरा तौ रांम तोरा,लोग मरम का जांनै मोरा॥ टेक॥
माला तिलक पहरि मनमानां, लोगनि रांम खिलौनां जांना॥
थोरी भगति बहुत अहकारा, ऐसे भगता मिलै अपारा॥
लोग कहै कबीर बौराना, कबीरा कौ मरम रांम भल जांनां॥

LET'S TALK

Hey, how are you people? 

Today I am going to share with you people something tragic that happened to me. So, Our family has some ignorant financial habits. Like they will buy some local land just through a broker and many other local investments. The problem of these investments is that they are riskier than even shares because of the added risks of non-trustable people. 

Likewise, my grandfather and my aunt invested in some random ass cryptocurrency through some broker who contacted my grandfather through some contacts. I warned my grandfather that this is not the way to invest anything. When you invest anything, you either read about it or contact a CA, someone who is professionally trained, who will of course charge some money, but who is obliged to do a good job otherwise, you can sue the man. That is how professionalism works. But that is the thing a middle-class man fears a lot, professionalism. He will trust his peers who can be just as ignorant as him but will never contact a CA, a doctor or any professional. 

So, my aunt wanted her money back after some time. And the terms and conditions were that anytime you can withdraw your money. So, my aunt asked me to help to get her deposits and interests back. Now started this broker's dodging the guns. 

He stopped taking calls, he started shouting, he started ignoring. 

Days and months passed. My aunt wanted her money because of some construction work she was doing, and she was in need of urgent money. 

Last month, he finally gave up and told us the process to withdraw.  Even that took some patience on our part because he dodged so much, shouted at us why we are calling so much and most of all, he used to lie a lot. He at first, said call me after breakfast. We called. Then he said that he has not said to call after breakfast, but he had said that he would call after his breakfast is over. Then I asked him after how much time, he said, half an hour. So, I relaxed, I had to do some household chores, so I went to the market. He called instantly 5 minutes after. He shouted at both my aunt and me for not picking up the call and told us that he said he will call in 5 minutes and not half an hour. 

We understood that this man is a broker by definition, that is a fraud. We kept out head and did finally what he said. Now comes the interesting part. 

He told us to mail the crypto company from a mail different from the official mail given by the company. So, we did that. I clearly remember asking him that do we use the official mail? and he said, no, use an informal one. So, we obliged. 

He finally also saw the mail screenshot and said, in 25 days, money will be transferred. 

Cut to yesterday, when we called, he started making excuses from morning that there is a technical glitch. When we forced him, he started shouting again and said that I did not mail using the official mail and that is why the transfer did not happen. 

Now, I don't know what to say. Like, I am not a kid who does not understand how to email someone? I have been on a professional workplace where official communication was done on email only. If you will tell me what exactly to do and on which mail, why would not I do that? 

I told him in frustration, "What an unprofessional man you are? First of all, you do not communicate enough, all you do is vague promises and then you ignore calls and shout!". 

To which, he said, "I understood what kind of child you are! This is what sanskaar your parents gave you, you are not accepting your fault, and you are arguing like a kid!". 

Look, I was putting up with the nonsense of this guy for 3-4 months. It was not even my investments. I even told my grand pa and aunty not to invest and trust local people and especially on such frauds like crypto. 

And now, this guy is saying I do not know how to email. and that my sanskaar is wrong and shit just because I called him unprofessional. 

I shouted at him, "AND WHAT A FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT YOU ARE FOR SAYING THIS MOTHERFUCKER!" 

He started shouting again but just after then I cut the call to catch my breath. 

Then He calls my grandfather. He told him, "Sharma ji, Aapke ladke ne mujhe english mein gaali di hai! usko bata dijiye ki english aur hindi mein gaali ka ek hi matlab hota hai!". 

I said, wow. I was thinking, why is he angry. Is it because I gave him gaali or because It was in English. You know Indian man always lives in a colonialism trauma. I think he was more upset because I said motherfucker and not madharchod. 

I would have said madharchod if my grandfather would not have been there. I would have said, "Arey madharchod, toh tumko hindi mein sunnna hai toh hindi mein de dete hain na, bur ka baal, randi ka baccha, maaa ki chutt tumhari, gaand ke side se khol ke ulta kar denge ne maa ke laude tumko!". 

Anyways, my grandfather told him to shut up and just give my aunt her money back. This time, he said, mail through official mail and we obliged, and he said, 10-15 din mein ho jayega.

Now, we got the mail checked through him so that he tells us clearly if there is a mistake in the mail. 

I am still not in stable state. I will be once her money returns. Because this guy was one of the most non-trustable people I met. 

So, what did I learn out of this experience:

1. It is so important to be financially educated. I think equally important to earn. 

        Earn money and then learn finance

2. Never take financial decisions through trust on peers but on professionals who charge money because now, the professional is liable to give you the service and if he failed, you could sue the professional in courts, but you cannot do that with peers. 

3. I know I could have handled the situation better with more patience. I will not defend what I did. I regret my deeds. I should have said madharchod instead of motherfucker to that bastard. 

jokes aside, all I was saying is when you are in this situation, the person who is conning you, might be a pro. He will not be affected by the gaali that you gave him maybe because he listens to them from his clients on a daily basis. 

I will not say, do not give gaalis to them. DO give, but do not get yourself affected by it. Because he is thick skinned, you also be thick skinned. Life, as it is, is war because of these people. Do not shy away from the war of life. 

I did not! and I learnt this much. 

4. Everyone has to fight their own wars. Life is a garden for those who do not aim for anything. That is always an option. But, if you aim for something, pain, gaali, regret, guilt, are part of the outcomes. Do not shy away. 

I promise, I would not have shied away from slapping the guy if he had said those things on my face. 

कब तक बोझ संभाला जाए
द्वंद्व कहां तक पाला जाए

दूध छीन बच्चों के मुख से
क्यों नागों को पाला जाए

दोनों ओर लिखा हो भारत
सिक्का वही उछाला जाए

तू भी है राणा का वंशज
फेंक जहां तक भाला जाए

इस बिगड़ैल पड़ोसी को तो
फिर शीशे में ढाला जाए

तेरे मेरे दिल पर ताला
राम करें ये ताला जाए

वाहिद के घर दीप जले तो
मंदिर तलक उजाला जाए

कब तक बोझ संभाला जाए
युद्ध कहां तक टाला जाए

तू भी है राणा का वंशज

 

फेंक जहां तक भाला जाए!

Adios!  

TAO UPANISHAD: THE EXISTENCE OF DUAL OPPOSITES

 

"When people see some things as beautiful, other things become ugly. When people see some things as good, other things become bad. Being and non-being create each other. Difficult and easy support each other. Long and short define each other. High and low depend on each other. Before and after following each other. Therefore, the Master acts without doing anything and teaches without saying anything. Things arise and she lets them come; things disappear, and she lets them go. She has but doesn’t possess, acts but doesn’t expect. When her work is done, she forgets it."

                ~ Chapter 2 Sutras

"To be or not to be" asks Shakespeare. It is not a good question to ask, Lao Tzu would have said. When Lao Tzu wrote, Being and non-being create each other, it is apparent that choosing one over the other will inevitably draw us near the other. 

He gives examples of all those dual opposites that create each other. The Beautiful and ugly, good and bad, being and non-being, difficult and easy, long and short, high and low, before and after. The chronology of these dual opposites is worth noticing. 

It begins by notions of Beauty and ugliness. Extremely perceptional and subjective. Even a layman can understand that "Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder". But difficult is to outgrow the tendencies of the mind to create an objective perception of beauty and ugliness. This gives rise to a notion of the "Hermeneutic temptation". 

I think, in our situations of sanity, we accept the fact that beauty and ugliness are products of what "we find beautiful" and what "we find ugly" rather than what "actually is". But then, Why the mind tries to make it sound like an objective truth? Why does the mind construct a logical paradigm, a sort of rationalization to justify our perceptions? For this, we might need to understand this nuance between a fact and an opinion. 

The nature of facts and opinions seem mutually exclusive. What is a fact can derive opinions but is not itself an opinion and what is an opinion can be supported by facts but is not itself a fact. But wait, no opinionated person ever speaks apriori that "this is my opinion", rather, just speaks as if it is a fact. This phenomenon is based on the rationale that every opinion in the head of the opinion maker stays like a fact as long as it does not come in conflict with reality or comes in conflict with other contrary opinions. This paradoxical nature of opinion makes things dicey. What is a fact and what is an opinion? 

Let us take an example. When the church said that the sun revolves around the earth, we can say it was their opinion. But their opinion was that time backed by narrow looking evidence in their heads. It seemed like sun revolves. Only when we found the ability to look beyond the geocentric perspective or gaze did we realize that the Earth revolves around the sun. But is it a fact? This is also an opinion based on the reference frame of observation. If we take seemingly stationary far stars as our reference frame, it seems that the sun is stationery and Earth revolves. But if there is not an absolute rest frame possible, everything is moving with respect to every other thing in this universe, what wrong were the churchmen who used to say that Sun revolves. They were not, were they? 

It so happens, that Objectivity or factfulness, arises out of the common background which provides us with the platform of scientific and logical verification. To say that there is something universal, in the true sense of the word universal, about facts of the universe, is a fallacy. 

Then comes the question, if everything is an opinion, then why the illusion of objectivity arises? This in my opinion, is due to Hermeneutic temptation. This temptation to explain each perceptionary observation by a logic. Human beings are never seen saying, "I am such a person that I find that person attractive". They always say, "She is attractive". 

And they can enlist a number of reasons, physical features, emotional quotient etc. The thing is, we need to justify it through reason. It is as if we have a philosophical necessity to explain our desires. When Jesus was asked, why are you suffering? He replied with silence. Who is suffering? Are you really sure that I am suffering? How did you arrive at this decision in such a small span of time? In long runs, pain and pleasure change into each other. Jesus became God. 

The thing is, we like to categorize. We like to classify. We like to make categories that creates out of it a logical structure comprehensible to our head. The birth of any discipline involves two steps: Building a logically coherent structure by selective inclusion of nuance and then legitimization through limited number of observations and illegitimizing all other counter-supporting arguments and facts.

When we identify beauty as beauty, it is implicit in our mind a background voice asking, then what is ugly? Just for reference, we identify that as ugly. Now, if we say, Life is beautiful, imagine how inaccurate that statement is. Is not what you consider ugly part of life? Why don't you say, "I am such a person that I find Life beautiful"? Because you do not understand to what extent your own desires and perceptions shape your view of reality. Whatever comes out of your mind is not objective truth. 

The nomenclature of beauty involves a number of artificially created reference points of beauty and in comparison, to those references, we deem other things beautiful or ugly. But understand that the references of beauty in our heads are not axiomatically correct, they are not self-evident truths. They are just either fed to us as common sense or we create a common sense suitable to our desires.

Our desires play such a crucial role in how we see the world that to even know objectively without biases, ourselves, requires shedding of our preferences and desires. 

As we progress, we find, the opposite duals that Lao tzu mentions, keep on becoming so called "Factual". Like: Good and bad, being nonbeing, difficult easy, long short, high low, before after. It can easily be shown through some deductive arguments that like beauty and ugliness, these duals are also subjective. So, we will not go in that. 

Interesting is the word, "Therefore". "Therefore, the Master acts without doing anything and teaches without saying anything."

What a genius of him! How can you act without doing? How can you teach without saying anything? How can you act first of all if everything is a perception of your own desires and objectivity is a self-constructed mechanism to feel at ease with existence. How do you speak if whatever you speak, nothing describes the universe but talks instead about us. Like if someone says, The Earth revolves around the sun, all it tells is not about the motion of earth, rather about reference frame, that we find that the earth revolves. 

So, we have two primary questions here. If objectivity is an agreed upon myth which on large scales of space and time proves wrong, then what is there to act upon or say? This is our first predicament. 

Secondly, how does the master manage to act without doing or teach without saying anything?

This is for sure that I am not the master. 😅

Maybe I am, but I am explaining with the already understood realization that whatever I say will not be the truth as language itself is an ultimate hider. 

It seems like the Master has left reason. Master is free from the obligations of explanations. Master does not need to explain the world and how things work. He observes them as them and does not utter a word. He does not judge the universe and its actions. He sees phenomenon as phenomenon as does not bother about the noumena. He lets the Universe has its secret. 

Gradually, The Master knows the secret, which is inexpressible in any language. He abstains speaking it, but keeps it in his soul, in his heart. His body language speaks it, his eyes blink it, his heart pumps the secret. That is how he acts without doing.

Doing is when you try to exist. You strive to be. How did you decide that you already are not? Once you try to exist, you certify that you don't. That is why, anyone who tries to love, scares the other person and the other person thinks he hates. Anyone who tries to become an IAS, verifies that he is not. How do you know, you already are not? What makes an IAS? a certification of the Indian State? How does that certification help an IAS officer's day to day life? Nothing as such. You have to deal with administrative works when you are an aspirant and after you became IAS. So just exist as an aspirant or an IAS. Do not strive. 

He teaches without saying anything. Saying is for those who cannot show. Their presence is mute. That is why they speak. Most of us speak not to express but to conceal our real selves. 

Truth is something that you do not say. You be it. A woman becomes love in the face of it, when she is in one. Her smile, her happiness, her dance, everything reminds of love. A very happy man does not tell you that he is very happy. His laughter is the evidence. Act without doing. Teach without words. 

Children are better. They learn from parent's deed rather parent's sayings. Then Parents' wonder why my ward does not listen to me. Because listening is not natural. Language is not natural to man. action is much more instinctual. If you want your child to become a reader of books, and you do not read any, I do not know what to tell you, he is not going to read any. 

Even when we grow up, we tend to learn from deeds only. Language and opinions are just concealers. Someone says, I study for 12 hours a day. How will it inspire someone who is lazy? It will not. If the lazy man lives with the attentive one, now is the inspiration. Inspiration, learning, etc. does not require language and opinions. It is hard wired in us to learn. To express the learning is a modern educational phenomenon. 

She does not possess, but she has it. Like a Train blanket. You have it, you use it, and you return it after you use it, and you leave the train. If you are a nice person, you will return it by folding it and keeping it as it is as it was before the usage. 

"Jyun ki tyun" is the Sutra of the Master. He does not own resources given by nature. He takes care of it whatever comes under his trusteeship but never owns. He does not even own his own body. But he takes care of it, nurtures it, eats what is necessary, does not judge it when it has sexual urges, takes care like a caretaker and then returns it to the almighty. 

Remember you have to return the Blanket to the authorities the next day you leave the train of life. Do not tear it. Do not wear it so that it gets crumbled. How will you do it? Take care of it. Be at ease with it. 

Act without doing. Your existence should become your deed. Your breath should say your deed. Your heartbeat should reflect your deed. You become that deed. But not by doing, do not force. Act, as if in a play. And do not get attached to the social conditioning much. You are not a son, or a man, or anything for that matter. You are acting in a play. Do not show anger when actually angry. Go home, express it, see your own wrath, when it passes away, come back, and act out anger. This has two benefits, 

This act of anger does not harm you. 

Your work will get done, which you wanted to achieve through anger. 

Is it actually necessary to be angry when you need to be angry? No, acting is sufficient. But it is that you cannot control. Come home. See your own acting it private, take a pillow. Cut it in half. eat it. Destroy it. Show its wrath to it. And then you will feel, you will see the thoughtless state, the state, which comes after the act is over. The backstage. You find it was not you. It might scare you. Is this you? Yes and no. It is your ego. not you. You are awareness of this ego. 

That is why, people get scandalized when they see themselves masturbating in private and the rage with which they touch themselves, a ruthless animal. Is this who I am? Yes and no. This is your body reacting to a lot of retention of sexual urges. A fully satisfied man is never an animal. He is what a civilized man is. But the dilemma is we want the ends without the means. We want a civilized man without the process of civilization, freedom to be an animal is the means to civilization, this paradox is how you explain most of our psychoanalytic problems. The freedom to fall in an attempt to fly is the reason why a man in his adulthood does not just jump out of a building. 

When the work is done, she forgets it. Do not classify, do not try to make a study out of life. Do not do distinctions. Do not try to remember it. 

That leads us to the paradox of knowledge. The paradox of knowledge is, whatever is we understand fully, we forget it. Like, its form not its content. And Knowledge manifests itself as memory in this world, you are called knowledgeable when you remember it. Now, whatever you remember, remains in your head like an unresolved complex, a sort of psychological issue. Like mother issues, most of us have knowledge issues. The education system forced us to be memory machines. We are not allowed to forget. 

Forget, Forgive. Forgetting is part of returning the blanket. Do you want to live with the memory of life when you are dead? When you turn into a stone and will not be able to move, do you want to keep on thinking how was it like to be alive? Move on! Moving on is the way in life. 

Hope I have been clear. But if I have been clear, you will practice this. Non-action, Non-saying, Not classifying, not rationalizing. And it will require a lot of unlearning. 

Mai aapke bheeter baithe paramatma ko pranaam karta hun! (I bow down to the god sitting within you!).