LET'S TALK!

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This week has been quite a week to be honest. People of my house are gone to our village to attend a wedding. So, I am alone in my house, of course with my uncle and my aunt. 

Coming to some issues. I will continue with Foucault from tomorrow. Today I felt like just talking to you people. 

This is a modern way of one-way communication. But some of you, who read me on continuous basis, know that I am very efficient in this kind of conversation. It is like, you are reading someone's diary and that makes you think something. You must be feeling sometimes an urge to say something. In that case, surely you can use the comment section. But many times, you feel lazy and keep your thoughts to yourself. I really love people who keep their comments to themselves, those who self-censor, those who do not want to attract drama in their lives, People who are so emotionally stable that they are interested without being involved. 


Coming to important issues, how have you been? How are things going? Good? Can you believe it, 2024 is also going to an end. 

If you ask me, this year had mixed outcomes for me. I left my PhD in January, did not pass my first Prelims attempt and put me again to the starting point of my struggle. 

But also, this year was sort of emotionally very much full of learning for me. I learnt a lot in terms of handling emotions and maturity. I am no longer scared of loss. I am no longer insecure about my position in life. What am I doing, What others are doing? I know I have a separate existence and a separate being independent of this world. 

I understood the essence of most of the things that I do. I understood in most of the cases, I am sad because I attract sadness. I, somewhat wish to be sad. Sadness requires agency. You wish it therefore it comes. I started respecting people who prefer a better quality of life rather than quantities of life like material wealth. 

What comes ahead? 

Actually, my nature has gone through a considerable change over the years, and I have become more sensitive to people's concern and my own mental health and emotional wellbeing. So, in my opinion, what you do specifically in life does not define who you are. You are not a doctor; you have a job of a doctor. There is a subtle difference. You are more than your job. So, given that, I think I am now more comfortable with my decision to attempt civil services. Of course, It is good in terms of economic stability and welfare of self. But also, The Job that you do, does it add directly some value in lives of people? I would like to think so. 

Currently, I am at this stage of my preparation where for the next 90 days, I need to consolidate my mains preparation, notes and all and take a smooth transition to prelims. I have to complete my optional notes till December. The coaching that I took regarding optional has proved to be really helpful. 

Unfortunately, in GS, I need to work still to the final point, so that I have some material in hand, which I can value add in and just call it final notes. I am trying to get a closure in GS. You know, what do I need. I need Simone Weil's theory of attention. Attending to Knowledge. I will someday explain Simone Weil to you. The need of emotional stability and peace is so much important especially in such a world of today where everyone is running. "Thaharna" or Stillness is the keyword. 

Moreover, I have done quite a lot since May. I have completed GS syllabus that is, Read once. But I have not made notes of all subjects. Like only 30 percent notes I have. I need to make at least 80 percent so as to call myself Mains ready. 

I will talk about my CSE preparation in detail sometime. So, what are the takeaways from this small piece of writing? Prioritize mental health, prioritize emotional stability, Prioritize well-being along with self-development. Go to gym, Meditate, always check on yourself. Keep yourself healthy. Feel healthy, Forgive yourself for the Past, Free yourself from the expectations from past. Rest yourself on yourself. Stay silent, and then slowly and steadily move forward. You will be fine! :) 



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