DAY 43: 23RD NOVEMBER 2024 JOURNAL

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Hey,

Today was a highly productive day. 

And also, I had really good insights. So, I think It will be fun putting it in words. 

So, I woke up at 3 AM in the morning. I just woke up and I was not sleepy at all. I don't know why. I really felt very good about myself. That I am not lazy at all😅😅.

 Then I had my coffee. Also, I was scared. I don't know why but I am still afraid of ghosts. Of course, I am not stupid. There are no ghosts. I am more afraid of cruel humans who try to pretend in every movie that they are ghosts to do some robbery shit. 

I was confused what to do. Should I go to my study room and study. Should I stay in my bedroom and bring my laptop here to study. Then, I decided to finally land my ass to my study table and just study. 

Then, I finished my coffee. Began to study. Of course I meditated today. Started studying. Studied further Geomorphology for two hours. 

Then I had a physics optional class. I did a 3-hour class. But it ended in just one and half hour. Then I had to do some household chores which took my 1 hour. 

Then I came back. Ate my Meals, Dry fruits, Apples, And sprouts. 

Then Took a bathe. and studied again from 10 AM to 2 PM. 

Highly productive hours. Wrote 5 GS answers of Geography and Wrote 5 answers of Quantum mechanics. Made template answers. 

Then had my lunch. Took my protein. 

Then I re-started my studies. And I again started to complete geomorphology. 

Then I had gym. 

Gym of course, was fantastic. I have found a really nice company there. We laugh, we smile, and we joke around. Something that I used to do with my Friends Nitesh and Abhishek more often until we fell into this bullshit, so called "take care of each other "Friends"". You know I think Friendships should not need to define itself. It should be what it has been since childhood. No intellectual fuckery around it. 

Like today, we sort of danced together on weird songs, gave ourselves silly challenges, like if I can do 15 reps of this shoulder push, I will qualify IAS this year. I like these guys. They may be average in studies, but they are not insecure about their future. I guess this is a trait you find in chill guys. They are not hyper-intellectual, but they are saner. 

Then, this wonderful thing happened. My Gym Trainer Sachin asked me, "Vibhat ji, Kya kiya jaaye bhai? Hairline peeche jaa rhi hai! Kya kiya jaaye?" 

And I was doing a repetition of an intense workout, and just in a sub-conscious way, I just said, I mean, not said, It just came from me, "Accept kiya jaaye!" 

It was so funny. People laughed. I finished my workout. Realized what I had said. and I laughed. Sachin laughed. But later, he told me,"Bhai Vibhat, tum toh soch mein daal diya humko! Itna din se tension mein the, lekin ab samajh aaya, kisi na kisi din toh hona hi hai taqla, accept kaer lenge toh paisa bachega!"

He actually thanked me. I felt sort of nothingness. I did not do anything. This simple piece of advice just came out of my mouth almost un-consciously, like it was my habitual statement. 

All the way when I was returning to my home from gym, was I thinking that why and how did I say that? Then I realized. These are not words of my own. These are words of my master, Osho. Like I have Sachin in my gym to take care of my physical fitness, I also have a trainer of my mental fitness, Mere bhagwaan! Mere trainer Rajneesh Osho. My man has trained me so hard that it is in my deepest of sub-conscious. I do not even realize this but I remain untouched of stresses of life and insecurities just because I am devoted myself to this great man, Bhagwaan Osho. Aur kisi ke liye hoga wo sex guru, Mere liye wo bhagwaan hai. Mere Osho! 

Mere Bhagwaan! Itna bada bana diya mujhe? Itna secure? Itna happy? Itna anandmagan? Itne ki toh kabhi ummeed bhi nahi ki thi bhagwaan? Itna kuch de diya bhagwaan? 

Mai tumse kya maangu? Aur bhagwaan mai dun kya tumko? Mujhe wo de diya jo bahut paise kharch karne ke baad bhi logon ko nahi Milta. Dhanyawaad Bhagwan! Bahut Dhanyawaad! 


अब कोई खुदा खुदा नहीं, कोई सनम सनम नहीं,

जब से गुरु का दर मिला, दिल में कोई भी गम नहीं!


Then, I came back from Gym. Helped my Aunty with some investment related and finance related stuff. It took all my time after gym. But not to worry, tomorrow we have no class! Yeahhh!!!!! So happy, 3-hour spare!!!

We will finish backlogs of today, tomorrow! Kaisa din aa gaya hai! Chutti bhi milta hai toh khush hota hun, ki backlog pura karunga 😂

lekin thik hai bhai, Productivity ke alawa duniya hai kya? Shunya! 


OK Bye, Had a really nice day today! Thank you, God, for this day! 

Adios! 



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