MOST SPIRITUAL ANTI-SPIRITUAL WISDOM EVER!

 वसुधा का नेता कौन हुआ?

Bhu-खण्ड-विजेता कौन हुआ?

अतुलित यश क्रेता कौन हुआ?
नव-धर्म प्रणेता कौन हुआ?
जिसने न कभी आराम किया,
विघ्नों में रहकर नाम किया।
जब विघ्न सामने आते हैं,
सोते से हमें जगाते हैं,
मन को मरोड़ते हैं पल-पल,
तन को झँझोरते हैं पल-पल
सत्पथ की ओर लगाकर ही,
जाते हैं हमें जगाकर ही।

वाटिका और वन एक नहीं,
आराम और रण एक नहीं
वर्षा, अंधड़, आतप अखंड,
पौरुष के हैं साधन प्रचण्ड
वन में प्रसून तो खिलते हैं,
बागों में शाल न मिलते हैं।
कङ्करियाँ जिनकी सेज सुघर,
छाया देता केवल अम्बर,
विपदाएँ दूध पिलाती हैं,
लोरी आँधियाँ सुनाती हैं
जो लाक्षा-गृह में जलते हैं,
वे ही शूरमा निकलते हैं।

बढ़कर विपत्तियों पर छा जा,
मेरे किशोर! मेरे ताजा!
जीवन का रस छन जाने दे,
तन को पत्थर बन जाने दे
तू स्वयं तेज भयकारी है,
क्या कर सकती चिनगारी है?

- रामधारी सिंह "दिनकर"


When I heard these lines for the first time, I got lost in the aggressive musicality of the lines. I really did not understand them. Like most men, aggression in me overtakes the idea of aggression and it's comprehension. 

The reason, I have written "most spiritual anti-spiritual wisdom ever" is the following:

In this age, where every ambitious man wishes to be spiritual, spirituality seems to lose it's essence. 
For example: In a video, the famous YouTuber Tanmay bhatt taints famous podcast host ranveer Allahabadia aka Beer biceps, "who are you trying to fool, Ranveer? No one is more views obsessed than you! Why do you pretend being spiritual like you don't care! You care the most!" 
Actually, he is right. Today spirituality is used as a coping mechanism by many, as like this. If I win I win, if I lose, I was spiritual, I don't care! 

I think the first and only prerequisite to be spiritual is to be honest. Ask yourself, do you really want it? Do you really want to be an IAS? 
If yes! Then don't pretend to not care! 
Care wholeheartedly. Suffer the fears head on. 

I am writing this just when I have my BPSC prelims exam 6 hours from now and I am in a car travelling to my centre. 

Ambition, want, desire these are the things on which the world runs. To genuinely lose desire is a very pious thing. Let's not fool ourselves into thinking that we don't want it when we want it the most and since we can't get it, we want to escape the fears, the stress, the anxiety of ambitions, our desires. 

Also, I think Desire is not a product of capitalism. Desire was there before capitalism. But this dishonest attitude towards desire is a product of capitalism. This "I want something but I do not want to feel the fears of wanting".

That's why I wrote my wisdom is spiritual. Because it is being honest with your desires. Come clean. Do you want it? Yes? Then stop pretending you are above your wants. Work for your wants. Your desires. Your ambitions. And be ready to face the consequences of your desires. That is, fear, anxiety, stress, failure, loss, sadness, depression, etc. 

If you want something, you can't have the capitalist version of it. Like Diet Coke. Like it's a coke but it does not have caffeine. Then it's not coke. 
Similarly, if you want to desire, the products are success, happiness but also anxiety, fear etc. 
If you can embrace them, then only you understood what does it mean to desire? 
To desire, is to face problems that comes in between you and your desires and suffer and to get it or to get defeated. 

This black and white approach to desires and spirituality is authentic spirituality. This is what is shown in the poem by Dinkar. 
It is anti-spiritual. It is not saying do not want or renunciation of desire. 

It says, what are the consequences of desire and if you want to desire, these are the outcomes. And yes, do desire. 

Dinkar was not a very spiritual man. He was lively. He was aggressive. All his life, he tried to give through his poems, a role model for Healthy masculinity for Indian youth. 


I hope it helps. Currently, I am also feeling anxious. Feeling stresses because of exam. But fuck it, that's the thing about ambition. To be ambitious is to face your fears head on. 


Jaan laga do! Ya jaane do! 
Tumhari mahatvakanksha ko 
Tumhein daraane do! 
Apne ekaant mein, khud se
Karlo tum bhi baatein do! 
Phir tay karo... Aakhri baar, 
Jaan lagao ya jaane do!