JOURNAL DAY 1: 29TH NOVEMBER 2024

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ARE YOU GOING TO HAVE FEW BAD DAYS OR YOU ARE GOING TO LET THESE FEW BAD DAYS DOMINATE YOUR PREPARATION?


Actually, I have just finished all of my work and really wanted to journal this thought that is going on in my head. 

Today I finished all my targets. Our US program for prelims has started. Today was the student's interaction session. Students who qualified 2024 prelims came to talk to us live on online mode. 

I think whatever I did today is not that important. Same old same old. Finished targets and went to gym. Yes, today was special, since I completed almost all of my chores. 

As promised, This is the screenshot of what I did today. 


So, Today I almost completed all my work. Went to gym, did shoulders today, Great fun. 


Now, some matters close to my heart. Prelims session yes. You know, one thing stuck with me. There was this guy and this girl. 


This guy named Avinash, who failed 2 prelims back to back. He was a perfectionist. He wanted to devour any piece of knowledge he saw. Any compilation, anything. He could not do it. 

Till December last year, he was depressed. Then he followed US plan religiously and cleared prelims with a margin of 40 marks. 40 Marks, can you believe it? 

I mean, I also followed that plan. But of course, I was too smart with it. I tried to overdo. I tried to make by side plans. I procrastinated. See, on the other hand, this guy, just unthinkingly, just followed. 

That too, he said, he did not. He just, in the last 50 days, started following religiously without backlogs. 

He said, he was the guy, who in one of the live sessions, asked Satyam sir, our mentor, is it possible to clear prelims in 50 days of preparation? Satyam sir said yes, but the condition is you have to our heart and soul to it. Whatever I say should be done without a word. 

You know I was thinking how we judge these people who ask these questions, "how to clear prelims in 50 days?" I used to mock these people. This was a tight slap on my face. This guy showed me a mirror. 

Ki Dekh bhadwe, aise hota hai. 

You know, I act over smart. I should not. I don't know shit. But now, this ends. From now till I am in the preparation cycle, Satyam's sir's words will be like gospel to me. Ab bore ho jaayein, ya padhte padhte mar jaayein. Ek din ka target ek din mein khatm hoga. Aur Dekhte hain, Jo padhenge, chhaap lenge maatha pe. Rok le jiska gaand mein dam hai. 


Second, I heard this girl Niyati. I guess, talking, And I heard and heard. This girl, I mean, she scored 47 in Prelims last to last year. And this year. She scored 140 marks. Can you believe it? 140, same guidance same everything. She also felt depressed. She also felt down. But, the difference between these people and me is perhaps, since I always focus on nuanced things and deeper meanings, I lose simple motivations, simple stuff that makes human's phenomenological surroundings. 

But, now, this stops. Not the thinking. That is my life work. But, From now, I will derive my focus, my discipline and my manifestations to this goal of mine. I will clear Prelims 2025. I will clear mains 2025. I will clear UPSC CSE 2025 and My name will be there in the Final List. When I will search my roll number, There will be written , "One result found". Let's make it happen. 

I can and hence I will do it. Period. 


Chalte hain. Kal ka intezaar hai...

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