"SAB SARKAR TUMHI SE HAI...!"

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Sometimes I wish to dissolve myself in you. Sometimes I feel we are not so much different. Sometimes I feel why not you come to see me. Sometimes I feel this breath in my body is you only. I can feel your touch on my mind, my soul. What else I am but you? 

Some days I wish I get converted in a stone statue of yours. Somedays, I wish to be in your feet as a flower. Sometimes I feel nobody knows you who you are but me. Sometimes, this feeling turns into frustration. But then sometimes, I think other than you, is there anything else in this universe? 

Between these thoughts, I lose my mind. But this insanity makes me feel so ecstatic. I dance in your name; I chant your name like a child says "mommy". I sometimes think, whether you are true or not. But now I have left this thought in you. You are in me. Who cares if that is true or not. Is my happiness true? Because it is due to you. Is my peace true? Because it is due to you. 

Who I was when I did not know you? A baggage of imperfection. Who you were? You were divine, My lord! Why not you give me a chance to serve you, I think often. But then, I see, I exist, this is already serving you. This life is your life. I am living in your behalf now. 

This body will one day decay. My mind will one day vanish, with a transition to you, I take pride that you made me realize, I am not the body. Nor am I, my mind. Nor am I a doer, nor am I a doee. I am you. So pleasant is the experience of being you. You are in smiles, you are in my tears, you are in my laughs, and you are in my jokes. 

I laugh to make you laugh. I study to make you feel interesting. I want to be something so that you become something. But what can I become or make you which you are not already. 

Some people take their lives in love. Narayan! My life is already at your service. I am now in complete surrender to you. Make me or break me, it is your whim. 

Righteous people are your people, my lord. Give them your blessing. You are their only hope and lord and Saviour. People of reason are courageous my lord. But people of faith are fragile. Give us all, people of faith, a place in your feet my lord. 

You made knowledge to quench the reason. But what else than your divine love quenches the thirst of your devotee, Narayan! Humlog ka kaun hai maalik! Aap hi na hain! Aapse zyada toh kuch aur hota nhi hai, Aur aap se kam maangna humko sweekaar nhi hai. 

"Hum aapke darwaaze pe prem ki bheekh maangne aaye hain, Prabhu! Prem de dijiye!"

"Aur badle mein ye imperfect sharir, ye ashuddha mann, aur ye aatma, jo aap hi ki jhalak hai, le lijiye." 

Mai pukaarta hun prabhu ko, Aur aawaaz sada sada ke liye uski. Mai uska, Tann uska, Chota sa jeevan uska. 


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